Life's a BIT... of a rollerCoaster, duH!

So, I'm not entirely sure where to start... it's been such a long time since I've blogged. Not that I'm giving excuses... Here's why:

Excuse Number 1:
I'm an elementary/middle education major at Frostburg State University (you all, the zero amount of you that read this, know this, of course). If you know anything about FSU, you know that it's a huge party school a great university with an excellent education program. However, this excellent education program that I'm currently enrolled in has been completely and entirely taking over my life. Between exams, quizzes, creating math centers (which took me a total of about ten hours... yeah, I know, absolutely ridiculous), making a book file, developing a timeline and presentation based on a children's historical chapter book, creating a 5 day unit, writing lessons plans, and forty other stupid and useless beneficial and worthwhile assignments/projects, I literally have absolutely NO life. It's bad. I'm not exaggerating. It's the kind of bad where you skip lunch, walk around mindlessly, and turn into a crazy person walking around without a brain. It's just not ok. I'm literally losing my mind. I better be the best teacher this country has ever seen after I'm done here. If not, I'll just go onto my backup plan... marry a rich major league baseball player, country singing, man. Perfect. I think I'll just do that.

Excuse Number 2:
One of my best friends, Jessicra Esmerelda Blublah (better known as Jess Blublaugh) went to Ecuador for two months a few weeks ago. I'm so incredibly happy for her and I know this opportunity is so amazing and worthwhile. She's already blogged hilarious stories and has posted incredible pictures. But, I can't help but miss her. Now, I'm fully aware that I'm going to sound like I have a huge girl crush/am completely and entirely head over heels for my bestie, but I just never realized how much I talked to/relied on her for.. well everything. I miss her terribly and can not wait until she comes back. So, in case you're reading this Jessicra, I misshhhh youuuu and I loveeee youuu to the moon and back!



Excuse Number 3:
There's this place that I absolutely and entirely hate love... The good old RT, Ruby's, Ruby Tues, Ruby Tuesday... whichever you prefer to call it. This place keeps me extremely occupied every Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. You can find me there between the hours of 10:45am and 10ish pm.. depending. Now, I'm not complaining about my job.. I'm very grateful bitter about the fact that I am lucky enough to have an income.. otherwise I wouldn't be able to get through college or live in Frostburg. But, it just gets really frustrating when I give up my only free time and still come up short on money.. Life is a biotch wonderouse thing and I am fully aware that everything, including paying bills and providing for myself, is not going to be easy. But, I just wish there was something that could help me get my head above water. I feel like I'm constanstly struggling and it's getting old.

Excuse Number 4:
There's no easy way to get around this... so, I'm just going to say it.. Men. I hate them right now. That's it and that's all. All I'm asking if for one, one person, to show me that not all men are the same. Or really, just someone to give me hope... and maybe a reason. I'm very independent. Don't get me wrong. But, sometimes, it's lonely and cold out there.. and I just want to know that it won't be like this forever. Is that too much to ask? Because sometimes I seem as if it really is..

Excuse Number 5:
My new obssession is children's literature. Maybe it has something to do with me becoming a teacher... but, I keep spending money on books like it's my job. I need to continue this because my future students will love my awesome classroom library STOP this nonsense. But, I can't help it! I need therapy or something. But, this leads me to, yes, you absolutely guessed it.. The Hunger Games. Ohhhh Emmmmm Geeeeeeee. I am absolutely and positively IN LOVE. I never expected to jump on this bandwagon.. nor did I want to.. because, as you can see, I clearly do not have the time to do so. But, I watched the movie last night, and seriously, so in love. Now, the goal is to figure out if I'm #teampeeta or #teamgale.. which I will figure out by reading the books that I'll be getting for Easter :). I am so excited. And I don't care if this makes me a nerd.

Excuse Number 6:
If you need to find me between the hours of 4:30 and 7ish.. I'll most likely be up in the gym just workin' on my fitness. Yes, that is right. I've been working out. Or rather, running like a freaking crazy idiotic person. I don't know what's gotten into me. But, I'm on a complete healthy/fitness kick. I gave Shaun T and INSANITY the boot about a month ago. My body was just so used to the workouts that it wasn't giving me the results I really wanted/needed to see. So, I just started making my portions smaller, making better decisions, and running/walking, doing push-ups, hitting the weights, and few other things here and there.. and wouldn't you know.. I'm down about 10 lbs. Not going to complain. Now, I just have about 15 more to go.. Think I can do it? I'm hoping. I'm trying to stay positive and realize that I need to be healthier. That's all. Not to be disgusting skinny. Just, healthy for my size/shape. Now, let's see how this continues. So far, it's not too bad.

Excuse Number 7:
SOFTBALL! Ohhh yesss. I started a softball intramural team at FSU. I'm so excited. I have a meeting tomorrow andddd then we start playing. I'm pumped. It's no lie. I can't wait to get back on the field. It's been so long.. and I miss it.

Excuse Number 8:
One of my best friends, Seuss (also known as Susie Sebastian) and I have co-founded an organization called Project Cover Up. This takes up a lot of our time, but we don't mind. Our goal is to raise money in order to be able to purchase fleece fabric that we will use to make No-Sew blankets which we will then distribute to local hospitals, nursing homes, homeless shelters, etc. We're excited about this.. and we really want to make a difference. We have a facebook page.. So, you all should like it --> www.facebook.com/ProjectCoverUp . We've raised a little over $300. Our goal is $750. Help us out and donate! We're providing warmth and security to those who need it.. I've lived my whole life warm and safe with loving people constantly surronding me. Now, it's time to give someone else the chance to experience it. Everyone deserves a chance to know what that feels like. To love is to serve. My church has been such a huge help in this process, along with FSEA and my other best friend ( yes, I know I have a ton of best friends) Brooke. Everyone keeps saying that God has a purpose for this project, I just hope/pray that we don't let everyone down.

Excuse Number 9:
I've decided to apply to MTSU (Middle Tennesse State University) which is located in Nashville for Graduate School. I'm doing it. I need something exciting in my life. I need a change. I need to experience life somewhere else. And this is what I'm going to do. What else could be better? I love country music, I love people, and I love the south. Perfect. Done and done. Get me on the next flight there.

Excuse Number 10:
Here's my new favorite thing to listen to. Yiruma. His playing is absolutely incredible. It's beautiful and so calming. This is my favorite. http://youtu.be/Kg3fACgr3Wk. For some reason, it's especially helpful to me right now at this time of the year. You see, there has been so much death in my life recently.. well, within the past three years.  A.L.L - RIP (3/5/09) Tory - RIP (3/25/11). And Steven.. who just passed away last month. It's just so frustrating, disheartening, and sad. It's just so sad. And it hurts. Death.. it's inevitable, I know that. But, why does it have to hurt so terribly? I don't understand it.. and it's hard. It really is. All I can do is take comfort in knowing they're in a better place and to realize that I need to live every day as if it were my last. What else can you take from death? Definitely not happiness.

There is good in every day... The challenge is to find it.

Until next time... whenever that may be.